Playing the tennis match today.

Thought I could finish on time and get home and to the interview site for my interview for Breakthrough Collaborative, but I underestimated the time and ran into traffic and died inside. Was late by 20 min.

I think I did pretty well in the interview itself, but the vibe just was not good. So basically I’m screwed.

I’ve always been a last minute person even when I try not to be. I could probably have gotten there on time if I rushed right after my match, but no, I loitered around for 10 min, practicing for my interview. I really need to stop this procrastination thing. It probably cost me a great summer experience. Mad at myself.

I don’t know why. Right now, I have a mattress on the floor of my room because Heemin slept over last week. After he left, I just kept it on the floor to sleep in. My bed is nice and all, but sleeping on the floor makes me feel good. It makes me think of Korea, I think. Maybe that’s why it makes me feel good.

It is true. I suck at tennis now, no matter what people say. I’ve gotten worse almost for sure since sophomore year.

depressing post sad face dammit sad

No, just kidding, this will not be a depressing post. Yes, I’ve played with 12-15 year olds after going back to tennis training this month. I am worse than I was before, and I do suck. (And I have two blisters just from playing a little bit) :( But who cares if it’s humiliating? It just takes a little extra work to get better. I know that if I practice enough, I can get back into shape slowly. It’ll be a bit easier for me to improve initially since I’d only be getting back to the level I was at before. But I think I can get better soon to the point where I can tell myself that I don’t suck. I really want to play for Pomona, and it’s definitely possible if I practice hard enough. So I’ll keep practicing.